Getting Out of Programming
I had a breakdown. I was depressed just looking at the Lotus Notes Designer screen. I wanted to cry and go home right there and then. There didn’t seem to be any challenge in this new job that I’ve been doing for a month plus. It wasn’t what I really love to do but I have to endure and carry on.
Why the torture? During the interview, I said I won’t look for another job once I graduate, so I have to continue until the end of this contract. If not, I won’t be able to gain their trust. However, I’m worried that my performance won’t be good. Like the other time I had to leave because I was totally burnout and didn’t feel like doing anything remotely related to programming.
Maybe I shouldn’t even have accepted it in the first place. I had been planning to do something else that’s not related to programming during the break. I just want to do something nice like blogging. Yea, right, as if I can earn tons just by blogging when I can’t even put up any codes here.
My search for a host continues.