My Life With IT

I’ve come quite a long way since I have been doing IT. 7 years is a long time with me being in the support group for 4 years and development started in the 4th year. I have been demoralised in the past (from year 5) and changing companies doing the same thing didn’t help at all. It came to the point when I didn’t want to look for any job. I just wanted to stay at home and do absolutely nothing.

Just eat, sleep, surf the net and meeting friends or travel. With quite a number of years doing what I’m currently doing, I have started to get bore. Somewhere along the way, I lost my interest in Lotus Notes development. I got depressed at the thought of going to work every morning.

I want to cry when I’m sitting in front of the computer and the task that I have been assigned. I wanted to go home immediately. I felt that I didn’t want to have anything to do with development or support.

Finally, today, I nearly cried while sitting at my cubicle. I had been feeling low for 2 days and this was the last straw. There was no way I could programme anything while in that mood. I had to talk to someone. That someone was my manager, the one who interviewed me.

I spoke of my interest to pursue another path. The discussion was a load of my chest. I just have to update my resume and forward it and see if there’s any openings within the company. I have finally taken a step towards a change.